you can get addicted to a certain kind of sadness.

it's really scary how i feel about you. because it seems neverending and i want it to stop hurting eventually. i feel like someone's holding me by the neck every time i see you're sad and i can't do anything about it. i feel like i'm wearing a straight jacket. sometimes i think all of this is willingly. like the straight jacket is on, but not tied, and still i refuse to take it off.