i'm sick of spending these lonely nights training myself not to care.

the rain makes me miss you. it makes me miss being warm in bed all cuddled up, which is funny since you and i never did such thing. i'm tired of this void that was left and having no way to fill it. and i'm tired of these girls i meet. i'm tired of having to sneak someone in and out of my house and keeping shit a secret. i'm tired of girls with girlfriends who want me, but for how long? until i fulfill their void? i'm tired of girls who pretend to want me in certain situations and then in the snap of my fingers, disappear again. i'm tired of girls who are only here for a few months and then they leave. i'm tired of being kept a secret. i'm tired of going bed to alone at night. i'm tired of not being able to call someone mine. i'm tired of not having someone to kiss good night. i'm tired of not having a hand to hold. i'm tired of being lonely. i'm tired of wanting you and only you. i'm sick of this feeling.