you're humming tomorrow's nursery rhyme.

we were supposed to meet up at seven but she decided she wanted to meet up earlier. we met up at an ugly little bar five minutes from my house that has the most amazing juke box. we played nothing but the kills, arcade fire, the smiths, depeche mode, and the shins. this girl's music taste is amazing and i think that's one of the reasons i drool at the thought of her. she wore a dress again. it was really cold so i gave her my beanie and we decided to go back to her friend's house which is where she is staying for the next few weeks. we sat and listened to music and drank wine and smoked cigarettes. she drank and smoked more than i did. she likes to play with my hands and has a fascination with my tunnels, like she's never seen any before, but she has. we kiss on the couch for hours. she likes to tease me about being a baby just because she's 27. she has a really cute drunk face, the kind that you wanna tease her about because it's so damn cute. we talk a bit in between kisses. i have no idea what these girls see in me. especially girls that look like her. we go up to the bedroom and she takes me by the hand as we walk upstairs. i'm pretty sure by heart was beating so hard that she could hear it. she's saying something but i can hardly hear her. i want nothing but to be in bed next to her just kissing and playing music on the background telling the story of this short termed romance. i like her arms eventhough they remind me of someone else's arms, not that it bothers me. i grab her face and squeeze it around her lips and pull on her lips with my fingers. she does the same but not as rough. we spend the whole night kissing and listening to my ipod.
the next seven weeks are going to be amazing. i can't wait to know her better and to kiss her more and i will cry when she leaves but it will all be worth it. in a way i'm glad i'm not completely over someone, just because if i were, i'd be completely head over heels and it would make the whole situation shittier. i am, however, glad that i know she will make me get over this completely. and when she leaves, i will be thinking of her only and not past situations.

welcome, autumn.

april: i hadn't kissed a 24 year old in a really long time. i like this.




i can see a lot of life in you
i can see a lot of bright in you
and i think the dress looks nice on you
i can see a lot of life in you

i can see a bed and make it too
i can see a fireside turn blue
and i can see the lot of life in you
yes, i can see a lot of life in you

when the world looks back
when the face looks after that
i can see a lot of life in you
yes, i can see a lot of life in you

i can see a lot of life in you
i can see your bed and make it too
and i think the dress looks nice on you
yes, i can see a lot of life in you
i can see a lot of life in you
yes, i can see a lot of life in you