gather medicine for heartache so we can act a fool.

we were laying in bed. facing eachother in the dark. i could smell her cherry breath combine with my minty one. we were talking about our days. i hadn't seen her in almost 48 hours and i missed her like crazy. we kissed in the pitch black room, our lips always seem to find eachother even in the darkest hour. i thought to myself "i am gonna miss this." so i held her tightly in my arms and she did the same. i've felt this before. or it's the closest i've felt to that feeling since she went away. i breathed her in, like i breathe in every girl i've loved. which haven't been many. she's extra needy today and i am very okay with that. i like the feeling of being needed and of giving this girl what she wants from me. if she wasn't leaving soon, i would have already given her my soul. she whispers in my ear "why am i here?" and i replied "because i want you to be here with me." "but why do you want me?" and i never know how to answer except with the truth. "because i really like you. and i want to spend as much time as i can with you." i answered. "but why do you like me? what is it about me that you like?" she asks. "i like everything i see. i am trying to find something i don't like and it's either hidden somewhere, or it doesn't exist. i like your personality, your attitude." i began to touch every body part that i loved. "i love your hair, i love your eyes, your eyebrows, your eyelashes, your cheeks, your cheekbones. i love your nose" and i poke her nose "and your lips." and i kiss her. "and the freckles that surround your face." i stroke her cheek. "i love your ears. i love your neck and your shoulders. and your back." i tell her while caressing every body part i mention. "what else?" she asks. "i love your arms and your elbows and your hands. i love your little fingers. and your wrists." i keep repeating. "what else? tell me everything you like." "i love your boobs." we both give a little laugh. "and your tummy and belly button. and your ankles and your feet and small toes." i run my hand up her legs as to continue to tell her what it is i love about her. but she interrupts me and asks again "what else do you love?" "i love your butt. i love your legs. and here." i whisper in her ear as i move my hand in between her legs. "really?" she asks. "yes" i whisper again. "you're already wet." i tell her. "i've been wet since you set your eyes on me." this is the prettiest sex i've ever had in my life and calling it sex sounds cheap. i want to breathe this girl in and never exhale in my life. it's moment like these when i know this is gonna kick me in the ass. and it's moments like these when i don't give a shit about anything but being next to this girl. we sacrifice months, even years, of sadness for seconds of happiness because we don't know how long we're gonna live. i am not willing to sacrifice a moment of happiness to not be sad in the future. i am not willing to let go of something good just because it will hurt later. what if there is no later? nothing is certain in life other than death, and i am trying to make the best out of it before that life changing event, clearly, happens.