i was sitting down on the concrete outside of a bar, having a drink, and smoking a cigarette with my friend. i don't smoke much anymore but i decided to buy cigarettes this particular day and i am glad i did. my friend and i were having a conversation about giving and about life in general. part of our conversation was about why it always takes me so long to get over people and the reason for this. our conversation was interrupted when a girl comes up and asks me for a cigarette, she claimed to be eavesdropping. i don't know if she knew the cigarettes were mine and that's we she decided to not make any contact with my friend but with me only. her eyes were brown and deep. and she had such a pretty face and such soft hands and really nice full lips. her name is april and it reminds me of spring and green grass and the cool breeze in the morning. she also reminds me of my birthday. of course she's only here for less than two months and she's going back to vermont the monday before thanksgiving. her hair is dark and her skin is pale, yes, i know. and she's a leo, of course. i should have ran away the minute she said she was a leo. but how could i? i thought to myself, what kind of damage can she do in two months? and then i thought about last year and i still didn't run away. never even thought about it. and the reason is that SHE IS leaving soon and she doesn't want anything serious here because she will be gone. but she's beautiful and i couldn't keep my eyes off her. and in a way i'm really glad she's leaving and in another way i'm not. she asked if she could sit down and she sat down next to me, close enough that i could smell her but not close enough that we were touching. she smelled good. she listened and gave her opinion on life. my friend decided to talk about my situation from last year and i wanted to kick her leg so she'd stop. i didn't know this girl but i knew i DID NOT want to talk about this anymore, especially slightly drunk, and especially not in front of her. she didn't need to know i was obsessive and clingy and that it takes me years to get over something that was only half there to begin with. but my friend didn't stop. i was slightly embarrassed and i'm sure i blushed but since i was slightly drunk, my face was already a bit red so i'm sure no one noticed. or so i'd like to think. my friend excuses herself and goes with the rest of her friends and i'm here, alone, with this girl who makes my palms sweaty every time she laughs and i can't help but smile like a fool everytime she plays with her hair. because she does, a lot. she spoke softly but her eyes lit up every time i mentioned anything kristen gundred related. she had gone to the dum dum girls show that night and came straight to the bar from the casbah. i was glad we were sitting down because she was wearing a dress and her legs would have kept me distracted. we talked and talked and drank and smoked and laughed and laughed some more. she kept fingering my tunnels and putting her dress down the whole night. it was about four in the morning and the bar was closing so we had to leave. she wrote her number down on my hand eventhough i took out my cellphone to save it there. we gave eachother a hug and when we let go she kissed my lips. it was really soft and pretty. and i stood there like an idiot while she looked at me and she leaned in to kiss me again. and we kissed. our lips pressed against eachother softly. it's been one of the prettiest kisses i've ever had. my friend and i headed back to her car. i saw her last night and i can't wait to see her again.
C.S.: be thankful she doesn't talk to you anymore.
aidee: i am.
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