i know.

i have no idea why you have been on my mind so much lately. you're consuming me again and i don't understand. i feel kinda shitty today but i really have no reason to feel this way. i wonder how you are. how you've been. i know nothing these days and it kinda keeps me sane but it also drives me crazy. i'd like to know how you are so that if you're not doing okay, i could do something like offer you food. which i know doesn't mean anything but at least you won't be hungry. i always think that when i'm feeling shitty for no reason it's coz you're feeling shitty and i can feel your sadness. i do hope i'm wrong though. and i hope that today it's just me feeling like shit for no reason because sometimes that happens. i miss you. it's always you.