and i just wish i had heard you say my name once.

and i saw her there, standing among thousands of people. her long brown hair putting the california sun to shame with its (shine). her summer dress dancing with the gentle breeze and her bare feet dirty with earth's floor. her knees were bare with the exception of a few grass stains and a few twigs stuck to them as she knelt down. i could smell her when the wind struck her and then struck me. she smelled sweet but a little sour, maybe even citrusey? i never knew how to speak to her. beautiful girls like her always intimidate me, just never as much as she did. all i could do was stare, but only when she wasn't looking. i felt unworthy of her presence. how dare i look into those eyes?! it was almost a sin so i had to look at her without her noticing. i stood behind her for a few minutes until i finally got the courage to walk up to her. she heard me coming and turned around. the sun hit her face and she squinted as she looked at me, her forehead delicately wrinkled. i swear i saw god. "you're here." she said with a subtle smile on her face. she seemed happy to see me but i never knew what to make of that smile. i gave her a smile and she gave me a hug. i took a long, deep breath. inhaling all her scent and feeding off my wildest dreams with it. i wanted to keep her scent forever. i didn't want to exhale. i kept it for as long as i could and released it slowly. just enough to still savor in that aroma. i tried breathing it again but it was gone. i found it hard to breath when she was around. but as hard as it was to breathe, my senses also sharpened. we stood side by side for a while, watching the people and not saying much to eachother. just standing there. she sits down, indian style, covering what she doesn't want people to see with her hands and dress. i join her. she looks at me and it feels like lightning hit. little waves of electricity are running throughout my whole body and when i come out of it i realize i was being kissed. her small, pink lips touching mine. every line on them, every freckle, connected with mine. she pulled back for a second and stared at me, giving me a look to kiss her back, and she kissed me again. i kissed her back. i could feel my heart wanting to jump out of my chest and into hers desperately, i fought hard to keep it in its place. she kissed pretty. prettier than all girls i had kissed before her. her lips fit perfectly with mine. at that moment i felt like my life was complete. as stupid as it sounds, it did. at that moment she took my breath, my heart, my soul. and i didn't know how hard it was gonna be for me to get them back. and i never did.


bleeeeh!