past. present. future.

people say to live in the now. to forget about the past and not think about the future. i can't do that. the past comforts me and so does the future. the past, because it's shit i've gone through. good or bad. the good because it happened and i was happy and the bad because it was shit and i lived through it and i'm okay, i guess. as okay as one can be. the future, because i need some sort of assurance that shit's gonna be okay. that whatever is bothering me will soon fade and i will be okay. i can't live in the now because the now fucking sucks.