drive them away.

i don’t let go easily. same with moving on. i always dwell on the same person for far too fucking long. sometimes i think it’s just me not wanting to. i think it’s the feeling of familiarity. you know? you already know how you feel. you know the sadness. the pain. letting go implies starting again. someone new will come soon, maybe not right away, but soon. and what happens when that person breaks your heart? see, with the current broken status you already know what it feels like and soon it will become a bit easier. but when you let someone in again and again you become vulnerable then that’s when shit sucks. i’d rather hurt over paige forever than to let someone in and let it happen all over again. at least i know paige is worth is. and i wouldn't want to feel this way over anyone ever again.