march 2nd, 2011.

my god. just sitting next to her makes my day, makes me nervous, makes me happy. i never know how to speak or what to say, so i remain quiet and look at my hands. the thought of her feet almost touching my hand makes my heart beat faster. her scent, her skin, her gaze, her smile, her teeth, every part of her body, every centimeter of flesh, her hair, her laugh, her voice, her touch, her body, every single thing about this woman is magnificent. flawless. the way she speaks, the things she says, the way she sits. the way she eats, drinks, swallows, chews on her food. i still can't believe i saw her yesterday. i asked my best friend this morning if we had gone to her house because i didn't believe it. she's beautiful. she smells beautiful. why can't i have what i want for once?