nothing fancy.

I'm writing this through my phone and I'm only writing because I have a weird feeling about today. I woke up from a shitty nap at 8:30am and I thought, "okay, I'll go into work early and leave early." But I don't know, I felt weird about it. Like something was telling me not to go to work early, so I decided to trust whatever that was and went to work at my scheduled time. As I went to catch my bus, it was late by more than 10 minutes, something that rarely happens. This feeling has been with me the whole day and it's driving me crazy. I feel gray, not blue or black but gray. My mom texted me to come home already and I don't know. I am only writing this because in a way I feel like maybe I am gonna die soon. Maybe even today. Or something shitty is gonna happen. I don't know but I hate this feeling. It's not a good one. Very few have my blogspot and even fewer read it. In a way this is kind of a goodbye letter? I don't know. And if I wasn't at work i'd probably break down in tears right now because there is so much I want and have to say to so many people and I feel like I might not have the time to do it. I don't know if I'm scared or not, but I think I am. If you read this, and by you I mean you, I hope you know how much I love you and how I never stopped. If omar reads this, I love you to death and no one has shown me better things and a better friendship than you. If no one reads this, I just want to make it clear that I love my mom and dad and my leopard and my rubber ducky like no one else. I guess that's it for now. Maybe forever.


I love you.


Aidee.