last night i dreamt.

i dreamt about her last night. it's the second time in less than a week that she's in my dreams and both times the dreams were unpleasant. i'm not going into detail but last night, he was there too. only, it wasn't the face i've seen in pictures, it was another boy's face. i went to her house and she asked him to open the door for me. i told him i depised him and he asked why and i said "because i'm in love with her and she's in love with you." i don't remember his response. i also told him he was pretty among other shit, then i left. i woke up teary eyed. i am not sure why. i don't even want these dreams anymore. at first when i dreamt about her, i didn't mind if they were sad or bad or anything negative, because at least there i could see her. in my dreams. but not anymore. all they do is make me sad and angry and i don't want to be sad and angry or either/or. i don't understand why i keep dreaming with her, i really don't. it's weird. it had been a really long time, too.