dear Paige,

i will always love you. always. you made me feel alive. i was happy, a temporary happiness but it was there. you are a truly magnificent creature with flaws that make you perfect. you had my heart, unwillingly, for seven months. five of them the most agonizing months of my life, two of them the best, most wonderful months of my life. and two days are the days at the top of my list of the best days of my life. the first being your birthday and the second, the night i met you. if i had the chance to relive any day of my existence, august 4th 2010 would be it. you changed my life. i never thought loving someone hurt this much but i also never thought i would love someone this profoundly. with every bone in my body. every muscle. every ounce of blood, every inch of skin. every hair. every freckle. with all my heart and soul. and the funny thing is i barely even touched you. i've seen you only four times and still you were my everything. i sit here, crying. i always cry when i write about you, but don't think these are sad tears. no, they are closure tears but because that's what the thought of you makes me do these days, cry. but it's only when i write. i guess i just want to say thank you. for being you. for not being anyone else but you. and for allowing me to be there for two months. and for putting up with all the shit i've written for five months. you still have my heart, you always will and i will always love you. always. every day of my life, every hour, every minute and every second. however, it feels good to finally be over you. you still constantly run freely in my head but you don't hurt anymore. i guess i'm no longer in love. i will always be here though. as a friend or an acquaintance. as whatever you want me to be. i will be here. you are the best thing that's happened to me so far and eventhough you broke my heart, the pain was worth it, you are worth it. you are worth wars being fought over you. Paige Alyssa, you are the best thing to walk earth. you are really truly amazing, anyone who doesn't see that is fucking blind and deaf. you're perfect and anyone who has some intelligence and some heart will bow down to your feet and worship you. and the person you're with will be extremely lucky to have you. no one deserves you, but the one who ends up with you takes the most beautiful treasure. you're the rarest diamond in the deepest mine, my love. don't ever forget it. ever.

always with my profoundest love,

aidee.