beloved is the sky and so are you, my omar.

this was officially your last weekend in san diego and it's quite comical we spent it in LA. i can't and won't say much other than how much i am gonna miss you. i will miss going to your house in the morning and you making me breakfast. i will miss walking around in our underwear together. i will miss you coming to my house and going to sleep at obscene hours in the morning and waking up at even more obscene hours in the morning. i love that we don't have to do much to have an amazing time. i love that you love coming to my house even when you know we won't more than lay around listening to music. i will miss you dissing st. vincent and me calling you out on how i know you like her and just like messing with me. i will miss you demanding i scratch your back and ass and head. i will miss you "oh my god, stacy!" i will miss many many many things. it's an endless list. i've had you by my side, only thirty minutes away from me for 10 years. seeing you will be a little more challenging now, but i will do everything i can to see you as much as i can. i promised you tickets to neko case, i got you your tickets and last night proved why it was worth it. i knew that if she sang "maybe sparrow" you were gonna cry. you knew it too. as soon as she said "this song is about two birds" i felt your body cringe and i felt you cry, i cried with you. this is our last summer in san diego together. i'm gonna miss you so much. like i've never missed anyone in my life. anyone. thank you for spending your last weekend here with me. thank you for choosing me over any other friend you have. you are my number one boy, number one person, and i love you. i will miss you. but i will see you soon.