missing.

something is missing, a feeling, that is
the one that kept me up all night
the one that made me toss and turn endlessly for hours
that same gut wrenching feeling i had whenever i read or heard certain things
that feeling is missing
that same feeling i had that shitty august night
the one that made the ocean pour its salt down my cheeks and at my feet
where all i could taste was bitter and salty
something is missing
and it's no longer a beating heart
it's no longer a breathing person
or walking legs
it's no longer soft kisses
and awkward glances
it's not alive
i am missing that feeling
i am missing your feeling
i am missing what you made me feel