i've never been this unhappy in my life. yes, i've been terribly sad and love is always a fucking cunt to me, but i had my family, and very strong friendships and i had a job and i was starting school. now i have nothing. the one thing i thought was unbreakable, is now...not broken, but not like it used to be. i have nothing to talk about anymore because my life is like on hold, except, it's still going. time keeps taking its course but i'm not moving. there is nothing here for me, sometimes i think there isn't anything for me anywhere and this is it, like my life is supposed to stop now.