can i make it better..

i find it funny how march 6 i wrote about not writing about anyone but samantha yet now, two months later, a notebook and a half, and heartbreak, i write only about JL. i've never written this much, there's 24 blogs about her on myspace, whether they're a sentence or a lot more writing but all i do is think about her and write. what i write is usually nonsense. i hope this ends soon, coz my heart is in pieces over her. i saw pictures of her and her gf kissing and i'm now a mess, once again.. i hate love and i hate this feeling, i want this to end, i want a friendship but i can't have a frienship right now, i just can't..