i do not struggle in your web, because it was my aim to get caught..

lately, recently i should say i keep having trouble with reality. i find myself thinking if i am here, right now. today i woke up and thought it was monday morning. all, everything seems blurred. ever since this year started everything seems blue. my mood has gone to shit and taken my attitude with it. part of it right now is i'm a bit hurt by something that just recently happened to me. a friend of mine made me realize someone is/might/was fucking with my head and the little pieces of evidence keep playing in my head over and over. sometimes it feels as if i only dreamt this. everything related to this person. to make matters worse i haven't slept well since the new year started. i don't know if i'm actually writing this or not. i'm fucked up and i have no way out.